Hard times

So my wonderful husband is soon to be quiting his job to focus on his passion of Linguistics. Some may say we are nuts or foolish, but when the Lord speaks all one can say is, "I must obey." I feel like Nephi when the Lord told him to go and get the plates(degree) from Laban. He didn't know what he was going to do or how he was going to get the plates. He knew his brothers really weren't on his side (UGA), but the Lord was going to make a way, if he obeyed. Well Nephi failed in getting the plates at first and finally he got them in a way that was really painful to his own soul. He had to do things he really didn't want to do or had done. This is the part that scares me. I don't like the unknown or the idea of having to do things that I don't want to or am against (welfare, medicad, wic, etc). Call me prideful or foolish, but I am not to the point where I can do this. I know many people in Adam's and my situation do this. I have many friends who partake in these organizations and are blessed with no worry on how to take care of their families. I know they are good people not being leeches on the government. I know these people and love and respect them, but I am not to the point where I can do this. It is seeming more and more everyday that this is the only option. My husband won't be able to work until the summer, if he can, and I have two small children to think about. What does one do? I know we all have trials and things that help us grow. I am not murmuring here. I am just expressing what is in my heart and my worries. I know the Lord will provide just as he did for Nephi so many times. Just as he has done in my own life time after time. I just wish we could have the comfort back of having our savings. This coming Thursday the committee that will decide if Adam can get some of his tuition back will get together to see if we should get it. I hope we do. This will keep the stress off until the summer comes and Adam can work again. I hope that I can continue to contribute a little with my home business. I know we are not alone. I know many of you out there face these same hardships and have made that hard decision of taking government aid or other ways of getting through these long days of school. I support my husband's choices a hundred percent even if I don't agree or understand some of them. I know they are what is the best for our family, that much I do know. I know this will help him and I grow together and with each other. Keep us in your prayers.